Greetings all
Inspired by he success of my daily on-line 'Mistresses Anonymous' Support Group (http://www.mogulus.com/uk2la) I have written this song, which I think pretty much sums it all up! This is for all the women who have been gracious enough to share their stories with me, and all the sisters of the mistress-hood who have joined the chat room to share their experiences and empower themselves to get OUT of their affairs. Everyone who stands up for their truth makes it easier for the next person. 'MA' rocks!!! So proud of you all.
Ps - If there are any music producers reading let me know LOL.
"The Secret Goodbye"
I exist by pretending to be ok all the time
The pain of loving you feels like a crime
Everyone’s noticing the strain on me
And I cant say why as discretion is key
*Inside I’m dying, I’m always crying - so then why do I stay? Because maybe one day you’ll be mine, you just may
These chains are too heavy to carry forever
As I know we will never be together
You’ve already got a family and wife
So why then the lies; why steal my life?
*Inside I’m dying, I’m always crying - so then why do I stay? Because maybe one day you’ll be mine, you just may
I lay alone in my bed and 3am is the worst
I obsess about you with her and it hurts....really hurts
Day and night I just rot away inside,
In a way I could never, ever, describe
*Inside I’m dying, I’m always crying - so then why do I stay? Because maybe one day you’ll be mine, you just may
You say I’m number one, yet never put me first
You call me crazy but it's anger – enough to burst!!
The pain is becoming too much to bear
And I have no ears with which to even share
*Inside I’m dying, I’m always crying - so then why do I stay? Because maybe one day you’ll be mine, you just may
As your secret other woman I’m just invisible.
You’ve stolen my dreams, my self-esteem, and, I'm miserable
Yet, I’m the one who loves you and cares for you..
So who do your family think is doing all that I do???
*Inside I’m dying, I’m always crying - so then why do I stay? Because maybe one day you’ll be mine, you just may
All I do is wait for your calls and for your news
I live in false hope one day it’ll be me ‘you choose’
I know you’ll survive - without me- and the lies
So now, to save myself, it really is time to say goodbye.
6 comments:
Any MM who subjects a mistress to such manipulative lies is a bad person. It is far more honorable, and better for everyone involved, if the MM is clear as glass to the mistress: I will never leave my wife for you. Only then can the relationships flower and grow in a positive fashion.
All relationships, monogamous or extramarital, must be based on mutual respect and concern for others' interests. First do no harm.
- Deep V.
Wow Sarah, Love your song, sums up EVERYTHING!! Who would u want to sing it? lol. Rock n roll or what?
Marisa
Deep V - the honorable thing to do is NOT to cheat on your wife in the first place! I pity the womEN in your life, I really do!
It makes me sad that you had so many years of disrespect in the hands of your men. They should have treated you better. I do think that in time you'll find the one you're looking for.
- V.
Wow, Sarah, you hit the nail on the head with this one! As a fellow poet and currently a mistress, you have described me to the core. Can't wait to buy your "manual" next friday. (When I get paid). Can't afford your book as yet, but I will see if the public library has a copy I can read as it sounds like it's a must read for any woman not in her right mind and get's into an affair, like me.
WOW. This is perfect. I am currently involved with a MM and am trying to break it off. This speaks so loudly to exactly why I need to be out of this situation.
It is always an excuse as to when he will leave the wife, the next holiday, when the kids are older, when she can support herself etc.
Thank you for your blogs and all you do.
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